Random Thoughts

1. Cancer. It's an ugly word. I hate the sound of it. No one should have to hear the doctor say that word. There is a woman in my church - 39 years old - who just found out she has Hodgkins Lymphoma. She is at MD Anderson right now being tested and evaluated. Today they tested her bone marrow - which is extremely painful. When she gets home this weekend, she will have to wait another week to find out what stage it's in and what her course of treatment will be. How do you keep your sanity during that wait? How do you keep your children from being terrified when you are absolutely terrified down to your very core? How do you tell your parents that you have cancer? How do you concentrate on anything except the evil, horrible stuff growing inside you? What an invasion.
2. My sister (27) had a procedure done last week to remove some pre-cancerous cells. She's too young to hear the doctor say "pre-cancerous". Everyone is confident she will be just fine. The only concern is her ability to have a baby - or carry one to full-term. I've always told her that she is the only one I would consider being a surrogate for. She reminded her hilarious, insane husband of my willingness to carry their baby and he said, "I'm NOT sleeping with your sister!" What an idiot! :-)
3. My friends who are missionaries in Prague adopted a baby last year. 2 weeks after the adoption, she found out she is pregnant. She's having TWINS! This time last year they had no kids and next month they will have 3 in diapers! I got to talk to her today and it was so good to hear her voice. I've only lived in this remote small town for 6 months and I miss my girlfriends. Isn't it great that no matter how much time goes by between visits - you just pick back up where you left off?
4. Vacation Bible School is next week. I'm the director. I might go insane before it starts Monday morning! So many details! Even though it can be stressful, VBS is such a blessing. This year's mission project is called "Blanket the World with Jesus' Love". We're sending fleece blanket to children in poor, mountainous regions. Our church is very excited about it.
5. Oh, I went to the doctor last week for some routine bloodwork. This was my first time to see the doctor here since we moved, so he was asking me lots of family history, etc. He is my age and very funny. Everyone in town calls him by his first name. I like him a lot. Well, I did, until he told me to get a mammogram! He asked if I would rather go to Abilene or Wichita Falls? I said "NEITHER". I had no intention of getting one of those until I'm 40. I'm only 37 now! I thought I had a couple of years to psych myself up for that! Less than 2 years ago I was nursing a BABY! Mammogram was not on my radar screen. Aaaaahh!!
6. Tonight is the last night my baby sleeps in his crib! We bought the boys bunk beds and they were delivered today. I asked hubby not to start assembling tonight because baby needs to sleep in the crib one more time! Like baby cares! He's always excited to sleep elsewhere. It's this mommy who isn't ready to take down the crib. Not only do I like the confinement it provides, but this is my last baby. That crib will go to my sister's house soon. Besides, no one with a baby still in the crib should have to get a MAMMOGRAM! Right?

Must go to bed now.