Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Being Still

It's never been easy for me to sit still. If I'm sitting, my leg or foot is moving. If I'm lying down, my big toe is wiggling. Restless & fidgety...that's just how I am.

But right now I'm forcing myself to relax, to really relax. I'm hundreds of miles from home, sitting in one of my favorite spots, watching hummingbirds flitter around the feeder that hangs from the aspen tree outside my parents' place in Colorado. The air is cool and the view is breath-taking. My dad is out hiking with the boys and my mom is inside the house, reading a book. All is quiet except for the distinct "hum" of these amazing birds. I've realized that I have similarities with these hummingbirds. They are tiny and hyper...always moving and somewhat anxious!

Although the peace and quiet are nice, I really don't know what to do or how to enjoy it. Yet, deep down I know it's exactly what I need. Sit back. Relax. Soak in the sunshine. Watch birds dance. Look at the snow on top of Mt Princeton. Listen to the quiet. Breathe. Breathe some more.

Sometimes life is so very good. And sometimes it just isn't. Sometimes the enemy tries to steal our joy by deceiving us with his lies...and we let him. Sometimes the stress of reality can be too much to bear and we don't know what to do.

And that's why I'm sitting here watching hummingbirds while I breathe...and breathe again. It's why I'm choosing to be still, reminding myself that He is God. He is always good...even when life isn't.